First of all I just want to say t h a n k y o u to everyone who came out to see us or hosted us along the way. Your kindness was way more than I could have hoped for!!
Tour, in my experience, either greatly exceeds your expectations or throws you for a crazy loop. This tour seemed to do both for me. I was completely blown away by the kindness of strangers, and I had such a blast exploring new parts of the country with two of my best friends on the planet. I also got strep throat towards the end of our trip, not exactly ideal for a tour at all. I'm a whiney pansy when it comes to illnesses and it's hard for me to ignore my hypochondriac tendencies that suggest that i'm dying and will never be able to sing again. My poor friends had to deal with my incessant worry about upcoming shows and whether or not i'd ever get my voice back. What could have easily been met with annoyance or anger was met with gentle kindness, home remedies, and understanding. It was so humbling to receive such great care from old and new friends in a time when I felt so awful and discouraged.
Before our final show in Lynchburg, it hurt me to even talk, so I wasn’t sure I would even be able to squeak out any notes at all. Taylor (roommate/ tourmate/ dear friend) said that I had to get to a place where I was creating and performing for myself. So that even if we were performing in a noisy coffee shop with no sound system, or in a venue with a good turnout and great sound, but strep throat, you could have an amazing show; because you love to do it whether anyone is listening or not. I felt terrible and insecure going into the show. I felt like we were intruding on people’s evenings and that no one really cared what I had to say, but I closed my eyes and thought about how I spend most nights: In my living room singing songs that I wrote and believe in and feeling so at peace and like there’s nowhere else in the world I’d rather be. I put myself in that place in front of complete strangers that night in Lynchburg VA with strep throat, and I had a great show. I may not have changed any lives with my music that night, but I remembered the passion and the joy that playing brings me. I know that I can’t be the best, and I can’t even always be my best, but I love to write about the human experience and it gives me unspeakable joy to sing those songs. A joy that transcends bad sound systems, noisy venues, and even strep throat.
Again, a million thanks to our friends, hosts, fellow players, and every sweet soul we met on the road. I love all of you!!!!